Wave 6 - F21, Unguided F21, An Aside

Today was my first intro to Focus 21. The mission was simple: do my preparatory steps, get into F12, and wait to be counted and guided into F21. Everything went as expected, and the count up to F21 began.

F21

In the intro to F21, you’re encouraged to notice and feel the difference between F12 and F21. For me, F12 feels pretty immobilizing—my body gets heavy, and I experience moderate phosphene activity that usually matches whatever I’m interacting with. As the countdown to 21 started, I felt both heavier and lighter, almost as if I were floating while being weighed down. I know that sounds contradictory, but that’s honestly how it felt.

Once in F21, you’re asked to find the bright white light of F21 and move through it. I rely mostly on feeling, so while I tried to visualize, it felt a bit clumsy. Still, as I perceived myself moving through a bright white space, my heart lifted—bursting with love, with this intense electric ⚡️sensation radiating out from it.

That was as far as I got. The countdown brought me back to F12, and I thanked the universe for this modest but entirely new experience.

Unguided F21

Right after the guided session, I jumped on the Expand app for a quick 25-minute F21 to reinforce what just happened. Everything was normal: I went through F10, then F12, then into F21—basically the same process as before, with one small twist.

At some point while just observing F21, I saw myself sit up. I was in grayscale and transparent, but with far more detail than other grayscale visions I’ve had. I looked down and saw my physical body lying still, with my normal skin tone, black shirt, and my beloved flower-tortilla-patterned blanket covering my waist. The strange part was that I saw it from first-person perspective, from my left side looking at me, and from the top… all basically at the same time but it was not disorienting at all. The moment I realized what was happening, I snapped back to my physical body, noticing only the darkness behind my closed eyes (I was wearing an eye mask).

I counted out of F21, returned to F12, gave thanks for the experience, asked any NHI to come say hi 👋🏻, and counted back down to 1 to finish.

An Aside

I finally managed a normal nap at the end of these sessions. Not even ten minutes in, though, my dogs woke me up by barking at neighbors who were outside watching a passing storm. The thunder felt validating somehow ⛈️