Percept Entries
Odyssey
About every three months or so, I take a week off from my usual physical training and replace my typically very active early-morning routine with meditation sessions. Bonus: if I can align this with time off work so I have completely free mornings, days, and evenings, it becomes morning, afternoon, and evening meditation sessions for about five days. It is like a mini-meditation retreat—maybe someday I will make it an actual retreat and change locations, too!
Heartspace
Before I begin my mini meditation retreat this week, I thought I’d spend some quality time in F15—the void, the place without time. Lately, it’s become my default go-to when I don’t really have a mission or just don’t have the energy to focus. F15 is a powerful state for manifestation, so I have to be mindful of my thoughts here (honestly, everywhere—even in waking life). It’s incredibly relaxing and soothing. Ten minutes without a purpose can feel like an hour. It truly is a place beyond time.
The Rearrangement
Returning to “Wave V – Exploring Intuition” was a good decision. I’m glad I listened to my gut… there are so many puns to be had here. During today’s sessions, another piece of the whole clicked into place and presented itself to me in the most natural and fluid way yet in the entire time I’ve been doing Gateway tapes.
The Boy Is Me
I just finished a very long project that spanned many years, so I took a "working Friday" off and ran 13 miles to think about the future—my goals, my next moves. Honestly, nothing was special about the length of the run, but I really needed the time and space to think clearly instead of mentally preparing myself for the day to come. It proved to be a good choice, and I have got some things on the horizon that I will be sharing over time through the professional blog part of this website. It is all good stuff—love and light and all that—nothing negative.
Remember the Melody
Today was my non-working Friday, which meant a long morning run. I put 14 miles on my new running shoes at about a 9:40/mi pace, feeling very happy that I am successfully maintaining my improved sub-10/mi pace over increasingly longer distances. Yes, if anyone is wondering, I did indeed pattern for this progress just under a month ago. Nevertheless, I did not feel too worn down afterward, so I decided to do a meditation session instead of simply taking an afternoon nap.
Descent and Return
After a couple of F21 sessions, I set my intent to have a lucid dream with the underlying purpose of learning something new. This time, I did not struggle to fall asleep as I usually do. I employed the F10 count-up method and skipped my usual mantra, allowing me to fall asleep quickly and deeply.
Self Encounter
Today was my first intro to Focus 21. The mission was simple: do my preparatory steps, get into F12, and wait to be counted and guided into F21. Everything went as expected, and the count up to F21 began.
Edge of the Real
During this exercise I did my very best to remove all traces of analytical thinking and just be there, fully aware. Of course, by focusing on removing analytical thinking I… ended up doing analytical thinking. 😂
Between the Ticks
I am still sensing out F15 after the pre-vision of it and my first-ever experience. I have noticed when moving into new states there is a good chance I will perceive it clearly the first time but then struggle for a while after, only to improve with practice.
Entropic Feedback
Relatively mild pair of sessions followed by a mild and kinda weird lucid dream... followed by a weird brain dump (download?). The part at the end feels like content from "Stalking the Wild Pendulum", Tom Campbell "TOE" works, work of Goddard, and others collapsed into a single torrent of thoughts on one particular topic.
Practice Over Pursuit
No more crashing ocean waves and no more Bobs disembodied voice greeting you in that now nostalgic voice "First, your Energy Conversion Box, use this." While I do generally miss being guided by Bob, the new guide is a great change of pace and overall I am very happy with the first track of Wave 5. Anyways the usual prep and F10 went as expected, decided that its best to use the original F10 method as guided by Bob in the first wave but I speed it up quite a bit. Seems like this method has been the best for me at this point, something about recognizing that my head and muscles around the eyes actually relaxing (like Im telling them) has alleviated "trying to keep my eyes closed" feeling... very uncomfortable.
Mycelial Threshold
I decided it was a good day to munch on 1.6 g of Golden Teacher and see where my meditations take me. It wasnt what I expected but it was what I needed right in this moment.
Lightwork & Rats
Today I went on an unguided session to continue practicing NVC (non-verbal communication). I like the timer function of the Expand app so I figured might as well do that so I can focus a little harder by taking my time with everything. I used to do this with Tom Campbell’s binaural beats after sessions for extra practice with whatever I was learning, or to just hang out in a particular state to get acclimated to it a different way.
Station Expansion
Another round of NVC II as I am continuing to practice my nonverbal communication. I’ve been practicing these specific tapes in hopes of getting past clicking out randomly throughout different parts of the different NVC tracks. So far... I’m still unable to get through the entire tape without clicking out here and there, but I am getting better.
Signal Recognition
The process of getting into the session was about the same as previous successful ones, all went well and without any particular issue. Getting into focus 10 was fairly quick and I was able to actually reach a particularly deep sensation of focus 10. My physical body at this point was already very heavy and felt as if it was under a weighted blanket.
Somatic Echoes
The session was a little stronger than the previous days of the same exact tape; however, the results were about the same. This time I was able to better keep aware of the instructions but still ended up clicking out (just a little bit less than the previous session), so not bad overall but can still work on it and improve. I have a feeling I’ll be doing NVC I & NVC II tracks regularly throughout my journey.
The Discontinuity Field
For the most part, the training was uneventful. I kept losing track of the instructions of what to visualize and often feel myself clicking out only to hear Bob say on or off without knowing what I’m supposed to visualize or what I was visualizing or doing anything.